Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Poems for Him

Two poems. Both for him. The him with whom I'm spending my wonderful day.

It's All Right
I watch you
Still around me
You still compel
And confound me.

Do you give hint
Of another chance?
Another song?
Another dance?

I’d give anything
For this, my love.
Still our souls fit
Like a custom glove.

My heart entirely yours
Waiting for your return
With the slightest prod
The spark will again burn.

Again we return
To our own safe haven
Dance together slowly
All hurts forgiven.

Lips touch gently.
the worlds all right.
Finally again I think,
I can sleep through the night.

It’s all right
Stay with me tonight
It’s all right
Don’t leave again, alright?


Our Winter

Wrap your arms around me
Hold out the bitter cold
Stay with me all winter
And with me the wonders
Do behold.

We whisper softly
voices sweet
In our own world
as we walk down
the snow peppered street.

I feel your hand in mine
I've never felt so strong
Frozen in our lovely winter
I wish I could stop the time
So this I could prolong.

Waking up beside you
the world muted by our snow
A contented smile
always upon me
The effects you have do show.

Wrap your arms around me
Hold our the bitter cold
Stay with me this winter
Cuz this one is ours
To behold.

Monday, November 9, 2009

Easy Choice - I Hate Dreaming...

I hate dreaming. I've had this one a few times and really, truly, I do hate it. But I wrote it out here and kinda like it, though the inspiration made me wake crying. And yes, I know I said I'd post wendsday. I lied. I wanna post today and kinda clean up my writing.com page.

Easy Choice
Heart wrenching choice to make.
One of us must go.
Sign of relenting,
Neither of us chose to show.

Life’s not worth living,
Without you playing a part.
But if we don’t chose,
Neither saved.
So with a sure heart,
I volunteer myself.
Forgo good health.
Give up the dreams.
But to give you more time,
Nothing to me it seems.

Live for me my love.
Don’t let this go to waste.
I’m so sorry to leave you.
I kiss you one last time in haste.

My choice is made.
Flames appear.
And with an ashen hand,
I wipe away your tear.

Whatever lies beyond love,
I promise you I’ll wait.
Don’t waste what you have love.
I promise you I'll wait.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Leave With Me

Welp folks, if you didn't guess by the pro-gay rant earlier, I'm bi. Annd there's this girl. I'm not with her and I really don't think I'm gonna end up being with her but... that wasn't my call. It's all a bit complicated and, honestly, moot because I'm with Kyle and happy with Kyle. But I had a dream about her and it sadly inspired this poem.


The sun rises,
light exposing.
I hold you gently,
re-proposing.


Let me take you
Far away from here
I can lift us away
To where we have no fear.


What I’d do to sweep you up
And take you away from all your strife.


But you say no
A sad tear in your eye.
You’re afraid of being dropped
So together we can’t fly.


Why do you let him
Hurt you so dear?
our escape so impossible
But the means so near.


What I’d do to sweep you up
And take you away from all your strife.


Sun sets again
We lay apart
Knowing it will stay so
Breaks my heart.


But you insist, despite the bruises
he makes you happy,
and he’ll take care of you.
And that’s all I can want,
for you to smile
So, God, I hope it’s true.


What I’d do to sweep you up
And take you away from all your strife.


Sirens flash,
harsh light on your skin.
Saint I am not
But letting this happen was sin.


How could you trust him love?
Why not come away with me?
If we’d taken flight when we could have,
You would still be.


What I’d have done to sweep you up
And instead he ended your precious life…




The next time you darlings may expect to hear from me will be WMeendsday. Or maybe Friday. I'm not sure yet. Ya see, the one is the next time I get to see Kyle and then the other is our annaversery. I already have the poem written but I don't wanna post it yet. It's a good deal happier than this one. He always makes me happy <3

Saturday, November 7, 2009

Dearest reader, I offer, for your forgivness, a story

Oh blog, blog, neglected blog. How could I treat you so cruely? My capacity for neglect knows no bounds. But I shall make amends to you, dear blog, by giving you enough writing to choke on. Well, maybe not quite that much but a story. An old one. Comments would be nice. The meanings are rather clear and the characters have rather obvious bases if you know me.

The failed songbird sat silently on her branch. Birds of different species flittered and fed around her, some even bidding her to join them. But she, fearing a trick, declined.
They only pitied her. With her odd voice dull colors and slow flight, there was no room for one of them to truly like her. Her voice, as well as the ideas she voiced with it, was so very odd that it made others uncomfortable. So she didn’t use it and was acceptant of a sad life alone.
There were a few odd birds that had stayed around her despite everything but by now they had all left her. Humans picked birds they fancied as pets. Those with beautiful colors and/or a nice voice were chosen while those without were left behind to die at the teeth of predators.
As was the case with most of her friends. They had all been picked or had grown bored with her. She couldn’t blame them and did not begrudge them their happiness. She simply had nothing to do with herself.
She was pulled from her malcontent musing by a feeling that something was amiss. Something was indeed off; all others had taken leave of the clearing and she was alone. A slow fear seized her. What had driven the others away? Why hadn’t she noticed it, whatever it was? With the realization there was something there though, she became overtaken with calm, a very out of place, almost suicidal all things considered, calm.
Whether it was an instinctual “don’t move and it won’t catch you” or a suicidal “Fuck it, life couldn’t get any worse” she didn’t know. I take that back; it was most deffinitly the suicidal “Fuck it” because, in adition to immobility, she found herself unable to keep from singing. Some part of her seemed to have forgotten that her voice was freakish and that her songs were not often appreciated. That part wanted to sing.
Despite being unable to rationalize it, she couldn’t stop it and from deep in her chest came a series of notes taught to her by her mother; long since dead. At first her voice wavered and struggled, having been neglected for quite some time, but after a bit it cleared and she found a new appreciation for her voice, having missed it so much in past years.
She was almost comfortable, lost in her song and feeling as if she belonged there, when a crashing came through the woods. She fell silent and looked up sharply just as a tall, handsome human stumbled through the shrubs.
His features were fair, not a prince charming by any stretch, but something…indescribable…about him was more lovely than any physical feature could be. Something about the man suggested an honest, poetic soul.
She never understood how some birds could just give up themselves, like an object, to these humans. The idea entirely disgusted her. But for this human…she could see herself happy in his care.
It seemed his presence had been what scared the others away. But to her, he had a delightful benevolent aura. She wanted to get closer and be with this human that had won her heart and trust at a glance.
But she regretted her foolishness, having set herself up for heartbreak. Humans have very specific tastes and there was no way one would want a plain, failed songbird. He would never want her. He appeared to have lost sight of her. To show him that his quest had been in vain, she sang a few soft notes to get his attention again.
His eyes snapped to her and, instead of the disappointment she expected, she say something new and odd. Almost perhaps adornment or love.
He walked towards her, not dissuaded by her plain colors or her odd voice, but rather, afraid to lose her. She watched, amazed, as he walked most of the way towards her in small, cautious steps, trying to keep from scaring her and sending her fluttering away.
She was immobile again and, this time, from surprise. After he stopped moving towards her, afraid he was pushing a limit; she decided to take her chance and hopped to his arm.